Don’t do futures unless you are a seasoned trader, lost it all

I’ve read stories about people losing it all. Never thought it would happen to me. I don’t know how to feel right now. I have no idea what to do I’m straight up lost. I’ve always just held spot, MEXC gave me a notification you could win rewards leverage trading (in hindsight i see why). I tried my hand at it and i lost some, got greedy thought I could make back what I lost and it’s gone. All of it (2k euros) I have a euro left in my exchange account. I hope no one ever has to experience what I just went through because this is genuinely one of the worst feelings if not the worst I have ever had. Knowing that I just let myself do that is almost unbearable, i am so dissapointed in myself.

I f anyone has recommendations on how to get over this please let me know. The worst part is that I have a week trip planned with friends in april and I put my budget into the exchange which I eventually lost. I will have to figure out how Im going to tell them I cant come anymore. I can’t believe it I hate myself so much. Please be careful guys, i hope i can atleast save one person from this